I don’t want to turn 30. I want to be 20 again.

I’m going to be 30 years old this February forth. Where does the time go? I feel like my twenties just flew by. I feel like I wasted them. I made my first feature film at age 24. I was 25 when Gabe was born and thrown into the whole family man scenario, in a relationship with a bitch which ended only last year. Time wasted. I never went to college, aside from community college for a few classes. I’ve spent all my time working and doing god knows what.

This birthday is really hitting me hard. I don’t want to be done with my twenties. I don’t want to grow up. I want to be young and have fun. But I see all these college kids these days and I feel so old compared to them.  Makes me wonder how I should act. I feel like I acted like I was in my thirties when I was in my twenties. Now that I’m approaching thirty quickly I want to be in my twenties again. I want to go to parties and play beer pong and run around in my underwear on campus and live in a coed dorm and do all the things I never got to do because I never went to college when I should have.

But then part of me knows I never could now, that I would feel like an idiot for acting that way. I just feel like life is pushing me to settle down and something inside me doesn’t want to. I want to rage out and be young again. I want to hold onto my twenties.

Can thirty be the new twenty? Can we all agree on this?

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0 thoughts on “I don’t want to turn 30. I want to be 20 again.

  1. On February 10, I turn 20. I’m in college, and, from the sounds of it, doing everything you wish you’d done. That sounds terrible, damnit…

    ANYWAY! This comment is here to say, if you want to go back to college, do it! If you want to live in the dorms, and you can get in, why not spend a quarter living the college life? I see 18 yr olds that look 35 and 25 yr olds that look 16. As long as you aren’t a creeper, no one will think twice about it.

    I’d say act how you feel. To hell with how society says you should act. All that matters is what makes you happy (well, there are some lines to be drawn here, but, those don’t really need to be mentioned). After all, how different will you feel on February 5 from February 4?

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