Seriously my current profile picture makes me look a little round in the face. But the scale doesn’t say I’ve put on any weight. Must be the lighting. I don’t know. I wish I had the chiseled jaw, manly man look going for me. I guess that movie I was planning on directing and starring in should be given to someone else to star in. Though I’ll still direct. But I always had this fantasy of being an actor/director. I feel like I’m not quite buff enough or good looking enough to really pull off a leading role. I also think I have too much of a baby face. When people see me and talk to me they’re always surprised when I tell them I’m 29. They think I look 23-25. Well I’ll be thirty in less then a month, so that’s going to sound like even more of a shock.
I’m no good with ages. Have you seen these shows like The Bachlor? Whenever I see these girls on there I always guess they are in their thirties, but it turns out they’re only 21 or 22 and I’m like “WTF?’ I don’t know if it’s the TV or their excessive tans or the fact that I’m just horrible at judging peoples ages myself. It’s the same with guys who work out and get all big, they look a lot older to me, only to discover they’re in their late teens or early twenties when I think they’re in their thirties.
Makes me wonder what’s wrong with me.
I noticed last night I have a bit of a widows peak going on. It’s not much, but I never saw this before. I feel like I’m starting to fall apart. My brother is 14 years older then me and still has all his hair, so I take that as a good sign. But still I worry.