I can’t really complain about my life. I’ve been given a good life with some good opportunities and some wonderful people to share it with. That said my biggest problem is myself. Why do you see fit that I should exist? I’m so back and forth, I suffer from too many problems and I can’t seem to get anything straight.
I know that deep inside me I am a good person. I’ve always felt like you had a purpose for me. Like I was one of your chosen ones. But you already know that. Problem is, I don’t know why. What do you want me to do with myself? You know I’m not a church goer. You know that people see me in a shredded light. So what then?
I’m not sure if you read xanga at all. If you do I sorta hope you don’t read my blog, in which case you won’t see this. But if you do, maybe you can provide some answers. Maybe you can rid me of my fears, calm my mind and fix my personality.
That message you gave me when you showed yourself to me years ago still doesn’t provide me much purpose. I understood the message. It was nice to know. But I don’t understand how I can apply it.
Anyway, what’s been going on with you? Hope everything is well.